Forever & a Day.....

Crazy to believe it's been almost a year and a half since I last blogged here.

Time really does fly by at a rate that makes your head spin. Gonna ease back into it by answering some questions for the next few blogs. It helps me organize my thoughts.

  

What is your life motto? 

This too shall pass. & Above all, be the heroine of your life, not   the victim.

What’s something you have that everyone wants? 

I’ve had numerous women tell me they want my cheek bones. It’s weird to me. Otherwise, people tell me all the time that they want my positive outlook and ‘can do’ attitude. It inspires them. 

What is missing in your life? 

For the first time in my life, I am content with everything I have and am. I’m even at peace with the loss of my parents in my life. The only thing I can really say I miss horribly is my Grandma. I would give anything to bring her back. 

 What’s been on your mind most lately? Several items: college, wedding, getting fit, planning several vacations for the upcoming year and buying our house. 

What is one thing right now that you are totally sure of? 

My relationship- his love and commitment to me and mine for him. We have come so far in the last 4 years of my healing journey. It has strengthened our belief that we were made for each other and belong together. Anyone that would stay, pull up their sleeves and crawl in the deepest, darkest pits of hell not only WITH me but also pulling and carrying me THROUGH those rock bottom days…is purely amazing. I love him so much. 

What are you scared of? Birds, people on stilts, lightning and dead cats. 

What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? 

Not a damn thing anymore! I am willing to step out and grab life by the throat. If you never try, how will you ever know what you’re made of?

What will you never give up on? 

The hope that one day my dad will be mentally healthy and say he’s sorry without an excuse. That it will be real and truthful. And that he’ll make a real effort at reconciling with his children because he will have realized what he has lost. 

What do you want to remember forever? 

My Healing Journey. I am so very proud of the determination and strength I found within myself. I found that scared, little girl and pulled her up from the ashes. I became a survivor standing tall and strong – nothing can stop me or drag me down. I never want to forget these last 4 years because it has totally transformed me. 

What makes you feel secure? Being wrapped up in his arms.

Which activities make you lose track of time? Facebook, Pinterest, Genealogy, Mario Bros., Reading and Writing Poetry. 

What’s the most difficult decision you’ve ever made? 

I’ve made two in my life: deciding whether or not to get a divorce (which I did) and deciding to send my daughter to a group home/ treatment center (which I did). They were the right choices and I’ve never regretted either of them.